Kurt/Blaine AU

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Hi! I'm looking for a fic I read a while ago. I believe it was on FF.net and I don't remember the plot but i remember Kurt is lonely and not in glee club or there is no glee club. And on Kurt's birthday the Spanish teacher is the only one that knows and later somehow Kurt and Blaine are togther in Kurt's room and Kurt goes into the bathroom while he plays his "suicide Playlist" and Blaine realizes it's Kurt's birthday and tries to go into the bathroom and stop him. Sorry don't remember much else about it but I really want to read it again! Please help me!